As fast as the move-in to Mattia 302 came, today marks the move out and the official ending of my freshmen year in college.  Suprising, right? Events come fast and go, so I say enjoy it all while you can.
Reflecting on the past few months, I've come to realize that life is what you make of it. Every single event, person, or thing that happens to you as an experience,  should be judged solely on your perspective alone, and not societal bias: what society tells you is the correct way to think of something.  College thus far has made me realize that analyzing loss, is in the eye of the beholder.  For example, some people may think that dropping out of college is a terrible thing because of their future... whereas someone, who does not feel college or continued education is right for them, could be perfectly happy living a simple lif with a simple job. 
The past school year has been the toughest yet. But, working so hard in pursuit of good grades... is it really where I want to be investing my energy?  Will this eventually make me feel content? These questions still remain unanswered.  Regardless of whatever may come, Engineering  has been one of my biggest challenges to take up.   The grades I've gotten have not come easily, and even so, some are still not where I want to be.
I know its not the end of the world, and some may view the move out as just a mindless activity, it just bein' there. On top of it, I will be repeating this same procedure for Judson 06'-07'...thats another story in itself.  But, I'm the type of person who just can't do that. To feel like I really left, I need to take this time out to just say goodbye.  I met some great people here at RU, and hope to continue staying friends with them. 
RU's treated me well thus far. So as I look outside my window I sit and take in the situation: viewing the other half of Mattia and Allen with the dawn light making my room glow, the wind softly blowing through the grainy screen, viewing the door which I saw thousands of people walk through since September,
Farewell Mattia.

Its well into the early Friday morning hours now, and I'm still in my pajamas and shirt that I attempted to sleep in. . I'm guessing I should be psyched since it is indeed Friday, but I guess everything has been dumbed down in my body due to the absence of sleep last night.  Since arriving from Winter Break back to school, I have gotten on average 3-5 hours a night of sleep. My roomate Ryan, continues to get well over 8 hours of sleep a day/night with the 2-hour afternoon naps.  I am very envious...
  I'm starting to think that over break I developed an irregular sleeping pattern, and I'm afraid it might turn into a sleeping problem soon.. In a no-holds-barred effort to frantically get my sleeping schedule back on track, I plan to continue to stay awake for the whole Friday until it is a, "normal" time to go to sleep.  Lucky for me, I only have one class today. 
Lets see how this works out for me...